for a long time i thought i knew the answer to this question.
"i want to work with computers", i'd say.
"i want to be a greenhouse manager", i'd say
"i want to be a therapist", i'd say
unfortunately. i can't answer this question anymore. i can't imagine my life after 18. i can barely imagine it now. i have no plans for the future.
"whats your dream job?"
"i don't dream of working."... is what i want to say
what i've learned through these years is that everything is pointless. in the end we all end up dead, don't we? so what's the use. if i have to be a worker in a warehouse for the rest of my life so be it. i don't have a plan for the future. my plan was to be dead. maybe it still is. i can't tell you the answer to that question right now. hopefully something will make this life worth living.

im the kind of person who wishes both texts were wiggling, haha.
this is somethig i've been thinking about for a while. and frankly, im a piece of shit so i'd rather not get into it; hopefully this sums it up:

INFP-T	sun and rising	moon